Terrible Things
7th February 2019 Rose day: On your tombstone, it is written – “On 14th of February, Peter Stan went out of love to give, but never stopped receiving it.” It has been 14 hours and 359 days since you passed away. I miss you. Today is rose day, so I’ve come to celebrate it with you. I put a red rose on the ground – underneath it, you’re sleeping peacefully. I sit there with a blank mind, scratching the dirt. I wonder if departed people find love beyond death, too? I think of your beautiful face, the last time I saw you, your lips were pale, you had lost your hair and your eyes were heavy, but somehow, you were smiling. You with your goddamn beautiful smile. I look at the rose lying above you that will always remain unaware of your touch. In this sudden silence, I remember an old conversation we had. You had said, “I’m like a rose. I open petal by petal. Before I t...